I am Suzie October 2020

How are you? How are you doing today? If you are happy and feeling good today, this makes me smile. If you are struggling or having a difficult day. I am here. I know people say this and may not actually mean it. I hate to think of other human beings in pain so please get in touch if you need to talk through somethings. My email is s.brodigan@icloud.com. I want to have a happy, contented tribe community going. A safe space to support each other.

Through my future yoga therapy and healing therapies I want to explore, I think I have a lot of love to give society so count on me. We must look out for each other more than ever in these COVID times.

I think this maybe my most personal blog entry yet. This year has given me the a moment in my life to experience every human emotion possible. Nobody ever thought this year would become what it has. Least of all me.

But in the ashes of uncertainty and insecurity we all feel with the Coronavirus; health worries, family worries, money worries, mental health struggles, isolation, loneliness and the constant ache of "will life ever be the same again?" I feel I have decided to fly again with a flame of purpose in my life. My purpose is simple. My purpose is love.

To give out more love to my family, my friends, my job, society and of course to myself. When I envisaged the life I wanted in 2018 after I walked away from my business, left my home and my relationship, it was with a holistic based desire. I knew then I had a story to tell through my difficult life experiences and wanted to empower others to reach their potential through my past and how I came to where I was then. But painful grief needs to express itself and I wasn't ready then and I still needed to make some mistakes and heal myself more. I wanted to run before I could walk. Which is typical of me and both my edge and sometimes hinderance in life!

Covid and my job stress ( I was bullied by a superior at work this year and during lockdown and it still has left me afraid of this individual and I have somethings to heal and deal with there, any advice welcome!) woke me up as to what I wanted from my life, where I wanted to go and who I was. I hadn't loved myself for a long time. Old wounds from making mistakes in my first business to regrets about my ex-partner and making sense of where it all went wrong. Clue: we loved each other very much. We are still friends and respect each other very much. It just wasn't meant to be. Destiny is taking me on another path, to another destination.

I cleaned out my emotional closet during lockdown. It was hard. It nessassry. It was lonely. It was tough but it was also empowering. It was beautiful. It was changing point in my life.

Like a snake I shed the skin of old and changed. A transformation I think I was destined to make. A stronger, kinder, more beautiful soul inside and calmer person looks back at me in the mirror. She will be a:

Therapist. Yoga teacher. Artist. Project manager in social projects. Mother. Girlfriend/Wife/Lover. Carer of her tribe.

I want to give back to people and society. To make a difference for the better no matter how small. I want my children to look back and think that their Mama tried to make a difference in peoples lives.

I want to hug the whole world.

Without love we are nothing.

Have a good day today. Smile and try everyday to love yourself. You're unique, special and loved.

Kindness and love,

Suzie xxx